Archive for February, 2008

Kindred Spirits

Friday, February 29th, 2008

Friends  I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how people choose their closest friends, and what makes certain people more “special” to me. I think part of human nature seeks out others who are like us. Why else would people join writing, cycling, and photography clubs? Fellowship with others who share similar interests is natural.

But then there are the singular friends who make their mark forever on our lives. If I try to plumb the ocean depths of my own heart (for I think we all have an amazing capacity for love of all sorts within us), I realize there are a few people who will always be in my life, whether we’re close together or far apart, whether we’ve talked to each other yesterday or ten years ago.

It’s people who remind me of myself. This, I believe, is also the foundation of really great mentorships. But these friendships can also be very problematic precisely because of the similarities in our personalities.

We all fall into the trap of wanting to save our friends from themselves, and this is especially “challenging,” to put it nicely, when we see our friends stuck in a cycle of behavior or headed down a bad path. We want them to be different people, perhaps as way of changing ourselves and erasing our own flaws. There is a place for tough love, but then there’s also a place of stillness, of acceptance and coming alongside them as the perfect person to provide validation of their feelings, emotional support, and sometimes (but not always) advice.

If you have a kindred spirit who’s driving you crazy, stop and think about why you’re so upset. Is it because you think you know them better than they know themselves? Do they remind you of something stupid you did in the past, or the way you used to be? Care for them. Let them break your heart in silence, without the peanut gallery. Be the kind of friend you want them to be to you.

New Tour of California Photo Album

Sunday, February 24th, 2008

New Amgen Tour of California and Napa Valley photo album up on MySpace. Hop on over and check it out!

Faith to Carry On

Sunday, February 24th, 2008

Writing organically is a lot like living a life of faith. It requires incredible strength of will and an unshakable belief that somehow, everything will come together and the way home will become clear. As I sit here, re-writing a novel that has been with me for a few years now, the path appears familiar, but with every word, every gesture and thought my characters show me, I realize it’s a new path, a new journey that I’m taking. I know the final destination—but I have no idea how I’m going to get there. It’s a scary feeling, not being in control of my timelines and character charts. You see, I wrote the first draft of this novel back when I thought I was an outliner. And it didn’t turn out very well because my characters were pretty wooden and the storytelling was very “telling” instead of “showing.” 

I feel a sense of panic when I look out onto the horizon of my narrative thread and all I see is fog. Darkness. Then, a ray of light, the inkling of an idea, another breadcrumb along the trail. So I pick it up, follow it, and then I stop, listen, and wait for the next breath of the Muse to draw me onward, slowly but steadily toward the end.

How do I keep being inspired? By surrounding myself with interesting, creative people. If I can’t do this in person, I like to listen to music. Something about the abstract nature of music reconnects me to my soul, opens up the channels of creativity and releases me from the bonds of day-to-day living that truss me up like a chicken on roasting day.

Atmosphere of place is incredibly inspiring as well–getting away from all the familiar surroundings that remind me of all my fiscal and domestic responsibilities. I guess this would be the greatest argument for traveling. However, my pocketbook is already hemorrhaging, so I must find inspiration in the security of home as well.

Sometimes, when the house is still early in the morning, and the sun peeks through the window, I am transported to that place where dreams live, and the Muse comes out to dance with me. As an organic writer, I don’t know when inspiration will arrive, but every day I must have the faith to carry on, even though I can’t see the road ahead.

Greetings from CA

Wednesday, February 20th, 2008

Hi all,

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. Greetings from Petaluma, CA, where I’ve spent the past couple of days soaking in the atmosphere and general excitement of the Tour of California pro cycling race.

George Hincapie

Um, George, I think you’re going the wrong way… ;-)

The weather’s been quite dreary and cold, but I did find a great mocha at Aroma Roasters in downtown Santa Rosa, stood around at the finish line for a couple of hours to watch a blur of bicycles whizzing by at close to forty miles an hour, and generally concluded that the value in attending an awesome sporting event like this is simply being in the presence of greatness.

I took some time to finish reading my book, meditated on the beauty of the Northern California landscape, and tasted some really great wines this trip. Definitely food for the soul.

I feel a creative seed germinating. Hopefully, I’ll have some time at the airport and on the plane to gather some of my thoughts and impressions. Eventually, they will make their way into my creative writing, but perhaps not for several months or years. This place runs deep for me, and I know I will continue to be drawn back to its mystery and energy.

 

The Best Investment

Thursday, February 14th, 2008

Sometimes I get all caught up in my various lives as a writer, designer, and business person. I stress out about how I don’t have control over the projects I’m responsible for. I get frustrated because I don’t feel like I’m making a difference in the big scheme of things.

Then my friend calls me, (or Skypes me, actually), and she’s really down. My work tribulations suddenly don’t matter, and deadlines can wait. I want to be there for her, to lift her up, to be the kind of friend that stays the course. I encourage her, listen to her, validate her feelings. And even though the tears may flow and the answers are still far away, the result is still healing, hope, and strength to move on.

What is the most fulfilling use of my time? Investing in other people’s lives. No matter how I do it, whether through my writing, correspondence with friends, or simply being an encouraging and positive influence on the people I do business with, this is how one person changes the world. It’s an awesome feeling.

Try it sometime. Today, invest in someone around you. It’s amazing how little it takes to get someone to open up if they sense that you genuinely care.

New Seattle photo album

Wednesday, February 13th, 2008

New photo album up on my MySpace page with a few photos from my recent summer jaunt to Seattle. Hop on over and check it out!

Soul Food

Monday, February 11th, 2008

I don’t know what it is about Mondays, especially cloudy, gray Mondays, but today I feel as if I’m walking through a fog. There’s so much I need to do, work stuff, writing stuff, personal stuff, but the synapses are misfiring right and left. Just…can’t…make…the…connection. Caffeine helps not one iota, thank you very much.

So, what to do…. Sometimes when I feel incredibly “off,” and I’m virtually deadlocked in a no-win situation between all the things competing for my time and energy, it helps to stop, take a moment, and try to connect with things that really matter. People. Friendships. Faith. When I stop worrying about what I have to do, and spend a few minutes sending a quick encouraging email to someone I haven’t talked to in a while, it’s amazing how much more focused and energetic I feel.

Isn’t it amazing how even just a line or two from an acquaintance or friend can lift your spirits and give you that second wind to make it through the rest of a tough day? I believe that no matter where we are in life, whether we’re at the pinnacle of our professional and/or personal life spans, we all need encouragement—all the time.

I had the chance to meet my writing idol, Amy Tan, at a reading at Squaw Valley a couple of years ago. I felt sort of idiotic when I heard myself gushing about how much I loved The Joy Luck Club and how it inspired me to become a writer, and so on. She was so classy and gracious and genuine, I felt inspired all over again. Later, I told one of my workshop classmates how she’s probably heard that line thousands of times. My classmate said, “Yes, but can you ever hear it enough?” Wow. Constant encouragement is essential to the nourishment of every soul. Writers, whose existence is by nature more solitary, need this “food” perhaps more than others in more social professions. But we all need someone who believes in us. And we need that person to tell us so. Often.

So today, send out some words of encouragement to a friend or two. They’ll be much appreciated.

Technical Difficulties, Part II

Thursday, February 7th, 2008

So I’ve decided to go back to the Kubricky plain theme for now, so you can use the search function if you need to. Hopefully, I’ll have the old flower theme up and running soon.

Cheers!

Icing on the Cake

Wednesday, February 6th, 2008

I’m experiencing a little writerly constipation today. I’m under a new deadline to write a synopsis for a novel-in-progress, and suddenly, I’m feeling a bit of performance anxiety. A lot could be riding on this synopsis. Who knows, it might lead to my big break, the big kahuna. The thing I’ve been dreaming about for a long time.

Part of the problem is because writing a synopsis of a project that isn’t completed goes against my entire philosophy of organic writing—no outlines, please! I’m afraid of killing my characters by speaking about them too soon, before they’ve had a chance to show me who they are and how they want to move through my story. I’m afraid of putting them in a box and smothering them. I want them to be who they want to be, not what I want them to be. Make sense? This, I’ve found, is pretty common among organic writers. So what do I do?

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what people have said to me about my writing. One of my friends said my blog makes her want to be a better person. A Hollywood video producer and screenwriter said my writing and outlook is a breath of fresh air to him. Another friend saw my blog post “Even When I Don’t See” (January 8, 2008) and saw a resemblance in it to an inscription on the wall of a World War II German concentration camp. A few weeks ago, I found a purple Post-it note in my mailbox from the eight-year-old girl across the street that reads, “you or nise,” with a drawing of something that looks like a heart with its arms outstretched, wearing a grass skirt. This really touched me (after I wondered for a while if all eight-year-olds in public schools have similar spelling deficiencies). I keep it by my cell phone charger and look at it every day with a smile.

I have a very clear memory of a day several years ago when I told myself that my mission was to touch just one life with my writing. I believe I’ve done that already, and so I can, in actuality, die a happy woman without ever accomplishing anything further. Everything else that comes to me is icing on the cake. I’m sitting in the palm of God’s hand, smack dab in the middle of His calling for my life. I can rest, knowing that whatever I do, even if I fail miserably at this task, He will redeem it.

Technical Difficulties

Wednesday, February 6th, 2008

Hey all,

I just noticed that the search function on the blog doesn’t seem to be working. Sorry! I guess it’s time for me to pull out my Wordpress for Dummies book again. I’ll try to figure it out and get back to you when I know more…